[From The Tibetan Book of Living and Dying by Sogyal Rinpoche]
CARING FOR THE DYING makes you poignantly aware not only of their
mortality but also of your own. So many veils and illusions separate us
from the stark knowledge that we are dying; when we finally know we are
dying, and all other sentient beings are dying with us, we start to have
a burning, almost heartbreaking sense of the fragility and preciousness
of each moment and each being, and from this can grow a deep, clear,
limitless compassion for all beings. Sir Thomas More, I heard, wrote
these words just before his beheading: "We are all in the same cart,
going to execution; how can I hate anyone or wish anyone harm?" To feel
the full force of your mortality, and to open your heart entirely to it,
is to allow to grow in you that all-encompassing, fearless compassion
that fuels the lives of all those who wish truly to be of help to
others.
So everything that I have been saying up until
now about caring for the dying could perhaps be summed up in two words:
love and compassion. What is compassion? It is not simply a sense of
sympathy or caring for the person suffering, not simply a warmth of
heart toward the person before you, or a sharp clarity of recognition of
their needs and pain, it is also a sustained and practical
determination to do whatever is possible and necessary to help alleviate
their suffering.
Compassion is not true compassion
unless it is active. Avalokiteshvara, the Buddha of Compassion, is often
represented in Tibetan iconography as having a thousand eyes that see
the pain in all corners of the universe, and a thousand arms to reach
out to all corners of the universe to extend his help.
THE LOGIC OF COMPASSION
We
all feel and know something of the benefits of compassion. But the
particular strength of the Buddhist teaching is that it shows you
clearly a "logic" of compassion. Once you have grasped it, this logic
makes your practice of compassion at once more urgent and all-embracing,
and more stable and grounded, because it is based on the clarity of a
reasoning whose truth becomes ever more apparent as you pursue and test
it.
We may say, and even half-believe, that compassion
is marvelous, but in practice our actions are deeply uncompassionate and
bring us and others mostly frustration and distress, and not the
happiness we are all seeking.
Isn't it absurd, then,
that we all long for happiness, yet nearly all our actions and feelings
lead us directly away from that happiness? Could there be any greater
sign that our whole view of what real happiness is, and of how to attain
it, is radically flawed?
What do we imagine will make
us happy? A canny, self-seeking, resourceful selfishness, the selfish
protection of ego, which can, as we all know, make us at moments
extremely brutal. But in fact the complete reverse is true:
Self-grasping and self-cherishing are seen, when you really look at
them, to be the root of all harm to others, and also of all harm to
ourselves.1
Every single negative thing we have ever
thought or done has ultimately arisen from our grasping at a false self,
and our cherishing of that false self, making it the dearest and most
important element in our lives. All those negative thoughts, emotions,
desires, and actions that are the cause of our negative karma are
engendered by self-grasping and self-cherishing. They are the dark,
powerful magnet that attracts to us, life after life, every obstacle,
every misfortune, every anguish, every disaster, and so they are the
root cause of all the sufferings of samsara.
When we
have really grasped the law of karma in all its stark power and complex
reverberations over many, many lifetimes, and seen just how our
self-grasping and self-cherishing, life after life, have woven us
repeatedly into a net of ignorance that seems only to be ensnaring us
more and more tightly; when we have really understood the dangerous and
doomed nature of the self-grasping mind's enterprise; when we have
really
pursued its operations into their most subtle hiding places; when we
have really understood just how our whole ordinary mind and actions are
defined, narrowed, and darkened by it, how almost impossible it makes it
for us to uncover the heart of unconditional love, and how it has
blocked in us all sources of real love and real compassion, then there
comes a moment when we understand, with extreme and poignant clarity,
what Shantideva said:
If all the harms
Fears and sufferings in the world
Arise from self-grasping,
What need have I for such a great evil spirit?
and
a resolution is bom in us to destroy that evil spirit, our greatest
enemy. With that evil spirit dead, the cause of all our suffering will
be removed, and our true nature, in all its spaciousness and dynamic
generosity, will shine out.
You can have no greater
ally in this war against your greatest enemy, your own self-grasping
and self-cherishing, than the practice of compassion. It is compassion,
dedicating ourselves to others, taking on their suffering instead of
cherishing ourselves, that hand in hand with the wisdom that realizes
egolessness destroys most effectively and most completely that ancient
attachment to a false self that has been the cause of our endless
wandering in samsara. That is why in our tradition we see compassion as
the source and essence of enlightenment, and the heart of enlightened
activity. As Shantideva says:
What need is there to say more?
The childish work for their own benefit,
The buddhas work for the benefit of others.
just look at the difference between them.
If I do not exchange my happiness
For the suffering of others,
I shall not attain the state of buddhahood
And even in samsara I shall have no real joy2
To
realize what I call the wisdom of compassion is to see with complete
clarity its benefits, as well as the damage that its opposite has done
to us. We need to make a very clear distinction between what is in our
ego's self-interest and what is in our ultimate interest; it is from
mistaking one for the other that all our suffering comes. We go on
stubbornly believing that self-cherishing is the best protection in
life, but in fact the opposite is true. Self-grasping creates
self-cherishing, which in turn creates an ingrained aversion to harm and
suffering. However, harm and suffering have no objective existence;
what gives them their existence and their power is only our aversion to
them. When you understand this, you understand then
that it is our
aversion, in fact, that attracts to us every negativity and obstacle
that can possibly happen to us, and fills our lives with nervous
anxiety, expectation, and fear. Wear down that aversion by wearing down
the self-grasping mind and its attachment to a nonexistent self, and you
will wear down any hold on you that any obstacle or negativity can
have. For how can you attack someone or something that is just not
there?
It is compassion, then, that is the best
protection; it is also, as the great masters of the past have always
known, the source of all healing. Suppose you have a disease such as
cancer or AIDS. By taking on the sickness of those suffering like you,
in addition to your own pain, with a mind full of compassion you
will—beyond any doubt—purify the past negative karma that is the cause,
now and in the future, of the continuation of your suffering.
In
Tibet, I remember hearing, there were many extraordinary cases of
people, who when they heard they were dying of a terminal illness, gave
away everything they had and went to the cemetery to die. There they
practiced taking on the suffering of others; and what is amazing is that
instead of dying, they returned home, fully healed.
Working
with the dying, I have experienced again and again, gives all who do so
a direct opportunity to practice compassion in action, and in the
situation where it is probably most deeply needed of all.
Your
compassion can have perhaps three essential benefits for the dying
person: First, because it is opening your heart, you will find it easier
to show the dying person the kind of unconditional love I have spoken
about, and which they need so much. On a deeper, spiritual level, I have
seen again and again how, if you try to embody compassion and act out
of the heart of compassion, you will create an atmosphere in which the
other person can be inspired to imagine the spiritual dimension or even
take up spiritual practice. On the deepest level of all, if you do
constantly practice compassion for the dying person and in turn inspire
them to do the same, you might not only heal them spiritually, but
perhaps even physically too. And you will discover for yourself, with
wonder, what all the spiritual masters know, that the power of
compassion has no bounds.
Asanga was one of the most
famous Indian Buddhist saints, and lived in the fourth century. He went
to the mountains to do a solitary retreat, concentrating all his
meditation practice on the Buddha Maitreya, in the fervent hope that he
would be blessed with a vision of this Buddha and receive teachings
from him.
For
six years Asanga meditated in extreme hardship, but did not even have
one auspicious dream. He was disheartened and thought he would never
succeed with his aspiration to meet the Buddha Maitreya, so he abandoned
his retreat and left his hermitage. He had not gone far down the road
when he saw a man rubbing an enormous iron bar with a strip of silk.
Asanga went up to him and asked him what he was
doing. "I haven't
got a needle," the man replied, "so I'm going to make one out of this
iron bar." Asanga stared at him, astounded; even if the man were able to
manage it in a hundred years, he thought, what would be the point? He
said to himself: "Look at the trouble people give themselves over things
that are totally absurd. You are doing something really valuable,
spiritual practice, and you're not nearly so dedicated." He turned
around and went back to his retreat.
Another three
years went by, still without the slightest sign from the Buddha
Maitreya. "Now I know for certain," he thought "I'm never going to
succeed." So he left again, and soon came to a bend in the road where
there was a huge rock, so tall it seemed to touch the sky. At the foot
of the rock was a man busily rubbing it with a feather soaked in water.
"What are you doing?" Asanga asked.
"This rock is so
big it's stopping the sun from shining on my house, so I'm trying to get
rid of it." Asanga was amazed at the man's indefatigable energy, and
ashamed at his own lack of dedication. He returned to his retreat.
Three
more years passed, and still he had not even had a single good dream.
He decided, once and for all, that it was hopeless, and he left his
retreat for good. The day wore on, and in the afternoon he came across a
dog lying by the side of the road. It had only its front legs, and the
whole of the lower part of its body was rotting and covered with
maggots. Despite its pitiful condition, the dog was snapping at
passersby, and pathetically trying to bite them by dragging itself along
the ground with its two good legs.
Asanga was
overwhelmed with a vivid and unbearable feeling of compassion. He cut a
piece of flesh off his own body and gave it to the dog to eat. Then he
bent down to take off the maggots that were consuming the dog's body.
But he suddenly thought he might hurt them if he tried to pull them out
with his fingers, and he realized that the only way to remove them would
be on his tongue. Asanga knelt on the ground, and looking at the
horrible festering, writhing mass, closed his eyes. He leant closer and
put out his tongue ... The next thing he knew, his tongue was touching
the ground. He opened his eyes and looked up. The dog was gone; there in
its place was the Buddha Maitreya, ringed by a shimmering aura of
light.
"At last," said Asanga. "Why did you never appear to me before?"
Maitreya
spoke softly: "It is not true that I have never appeared to you before.
I was with you all the time, but your negative karma and obscurations
prevented you from seeing me. Your twelve years of practice dissolved
them slightly, so that you were at last able to see the dog. Then,
thanks to your genuine and heartfelt compassion, all those obscurations
were completely swept away, and you can see me before you with your
very own eyes. If you don't believe that this is what happened, put me
on your shoulder and try and see if anyone else can see me."
Asanga
put Maitreya on his right shoulder and went to the marketplace, where
he began to ask everyone: "What have I got on my shoulder?" "Nothing,"
most people said, and hurried on. Only one old woman, whose karma had
been slightly purified, answered: "You've got the rotting corpse of an
old dog on your shoulder, that's all." Asanga at last understood the
boundless power of compassion that had purified and transformed his
karma, and so made him a vessel fit to receive the vision and
instruction of Maitreya. Then the Buddha Maitreya, whose name means
"loving kindness," took Asanga to a heavenly realm, and there gave him
many sublime teachings that are among the most important in the whole of
Buddhism.
THE STORY OF TONGLEN AND THE POWER OF COMPASSION
My
students often come to me and ask: "My friend's or my relative's
suffering is disturbing me very much, and I really want to help. But I
find I cannot feel enough love actually to be able to help. The
compassion I want to show is blocked. What can I do?" Haven't all of us
surely known the sad frustration of not being able to find in our hearts
enough love and compassion for the people who are suffering around us,
and so not enough strength to help them?
One of the
great qualities of the Buddhist tradition is its development of an array
of practices that can really help you in situations like this, that can
truly nourish you and fill you with the power and the joyful
resourcefulness and enthusiasm that will enable you to purify your mind
and unblock your heart, so that the healing energies of wisdom and
compassion can play upon and transform the situation you find yourself
in.
Of all the practices I know, the practice of
Tonglen, which in Tibetan means "giving and receiving," is one of the
most useful and powerful. When you feel yourself locked in upon
yourself, Tonglen opens you to the truth of the suffering of others;
when your heart is blocked, it destroys those forces that are
obstructing it; and when you feel estranged from the person who is in
pain before you, or bitter or despairing, it helps you to find within
yourself and then to reveal the loving, expansive radiance of your own
true nature. No other practice I know is as effective in destroying the
self-grasping, self-cherishing, and self-absorption of the ego, which is
the root of all our suffering and the root of all hard-heartedness.
One
of the greatest masters of Tonglen in Tibet was Geshe Chekhawa, who
lived in the twelfth century. He was extremely learned and accomplished
in many different forms of meditation. One day when he happened to be in
his teacher's room, he came across a book lying open at the following
lines:
Give all profit and gflin to others,
Take all loss and defeat on yourself
The
vast and almost unimaginable compassion of these lines astounded him,
and he set out to find the master who had written them. One day on his
journey he met a leper, who told him that this master had died. But
Geshe Chekhawa persevered, and his long efforts were rewarded when he
found the dead master' s principal disciple. Geshe Chekhawa asked this
disciple: "just how important do you think the teachings contained in
these two lines are?" The disciple replied: 'Whether you like it or not,
you will have to practice this teaching if you truly wish to attain
buddhahood."
This reply astonished Geshe Chekhawa
almost as much as his first reading of the two lines, and he stayed with
this disciple for twelve years, to study this teaching and to take to
heart the practice of Tonglen, which is its practical application.
During that time, Geshe Chekhawa had to face many different kinds of
ordeals: all sorts of difficulties, criticism, hardships, and abuse. And
the teaching was so effective, and his perseverance in its practice so
intense, that after six years he had completely eradicated any self
grasping and self-cherishing. The practice of Tonglen had transformed
him into a master of compassion.
At first Geshe
Chekhawa taught Tonglen to only a few close disciples, thinking that it
would only work for those who had great faith in it. Then he began to
teach it to a group of lepers. Leprosy at that time was common in Tibet,
and ordinary doctors were unable to treat or cure it. But many of the
lepers who did Tonglen practice were cured. The news of this spread
fast, and other lepers flocked to his house, which began to seem like a
hospital.
Still Geshe Chekhawa didn't teach Tonglen
widely. It was only when he noticed the effect it had on his brother
that he began to give it out more publicly. Geshe Chekhawa's brother was
an inveterate skeptic, who derided all forms of spiritual practice.
However, when he saw what was happening to the lepers who were
practicing Tonglen, this brother could not help being impressed and
intrigued. One day he hid behind a door and listened to Geshe Chekhawa
teaching Tonglen, and then, in secret, started doing the practice on his
own. When Geshe Chekhawa noticed that his brother's hard character was
beginning to soften, he guessed what had happened.
If
this practice could work on his brother, he thought, and transform him,
then it could work on and transform any other human being. This
convinced Geshe Chekhawa to teach Tonglen far more widely. He himself
never ceased to practice it. Toward the end of his life, Geshe Chekhawa
told his students that for a long time he had been praying fervently to
be reborn in the hell realms, so as to be of help to all the beings
suffering there. Unfortunately, he added, he had recently had several
clear dreams that indicated he was to be reborn in one of the realms of
the buddhas. He was bitterly disappointed and begged his students, with
tears in his eyes, to pray to the buddhas that this would not happen,
and that his passionate wish to help the beings in hell would be
fulfilled.
HOW TO AWAKEN LOVE AND COMPASSION
Before
you can truly practice Tonglen, you have to be able to evoke compassion
in yourself. That is harder than we often imagine, because the sources
of our love and compassion are sometimes hidden from us, and we may have
no ready access to them. Fortunately there are several special
techniques that the Buddhist "training of the mind" in compassion has
developed to help us evoke our own hidden love. Out of the enormous
range of methods available, I have selected the following ones, and have
ordered them in a particular way so as to be of the greatest possible
use to people in the modern world.
1. Loving Kindness: Unsealing the Spring
When
we believe that we don't have enough love in us, there is a method for
discovering and invoking it. Go back in your mind and recreate, almost
visualize, a love that someone gave you that really moved you, perhaps
in your childhood. Traditionally you are taught to think of your mother
and her lifelong devotion to you, but if you find that problematic, you
could think of your grandmother or grandfather, or anyone who had been
deeply kind to you in your life. Remember a particular instance when
they really showed you love and you felt their love vividly.
Now
let that feeling arise again in your heart and infuse you with
gratitude. As you do so, your love will go out naturally to that person
who evoked it. You will remember then that even though you may not
always feel that you have been loved enough, you were loved genuinely
once. Knowing that now will make you feel again that you are, as that
person made you feel then, worthy of love and really lovable.
Let
your heart open now and let love flow from it; then extend this love to
all beings. Begin with those who are closest to you, then extend your
love to friends and to acquaintances, then to neighbors, to strangers,
then even to those whom you don't like or have difficulties with, even
those whom you might consider as your "enemies," and finally to the
whole universe. Let this love become more and more boundless. Equanimity
is one of the four essential facets, with loving kindness, compassion,
and joy, of what the teachings say form the entire aspiration of
compassion. The all-inclusive, unbiased view of equanimity is really the
starting point and the basis of the path of compassion.
You
will find that this practice unseals a spring of love, and by that
unsealing in you of your own loving kindness, you will find that it will
inspire the birth of compassion. For as Maitreya said in one of the
teachings he gave Asanga: "The water of compassion courses through the
canal of loving kindness."
2. Compassion: Considering Yourself the Same as Others
One
powerful way to evoke compassion, as I have described in the previous
chapter, is to think of others as exactly the same as you. "After all,"
the Dalai Lama explains, "all human beings are the same—made of human
flesh, bones, and blood. We all want happiness and want to avoid
suffering. Further, we have an equal right to be happy. In other words,
it is important to realize our sameness as human beings."3
Say,
for example, you are having difficulties with a loved one, such as your
mother or father, husband or wife, lover or friend. How helpful and
revealing it can be to consider the other person not in his or her
"role" of mother or father or husband, but simply as another "you,"
another human being, with the same feelings as you, the same desire for
happiness, the same fear of suffering. Thinking of the person as a real
person, exactly the same as you, will open your heart to him or her and
give you more insight into how to help.
If you consider
others just the same as yourself, it will help you to open up your
relationships and give them a new and richer meaning. Imagine if
societies and nations began to view each other in the same way; at last
we would have the beginnings of a solid basis for peace on earth and the
happy coexistence of all peoples.
3. Compassion: Exchanging Yourself for Others
When
someone is suffering and you find yourself at a loss to know how to
help, put yourself unflinchingly in his or her place. Imagine as vividly
as possible what you would be going through if you were suffering the
same pain. Ask yourself: "How would I feel? How would I want my friends
to treat me? What would I most want from them?"
When
you exchange yourself for others in this way, you are directly
transferring your cherishing from its usual object, yourself, to other
beings. So exchanging yourself for others is a very powerful way of
loosening the hold on you of the self-cherishing and the self-grasping
of ego, and so of releasing the heart of your compassion.
4. Using a Friend to Generate Compassion
Another
moving technique for arousing compassion for a person who is suffering
is to imagine one of your dearest friends, or someone you really love,
in that person's place.
Imagine your brother or
daughter or parent or best friend in the same kind of painful situation.
Quite naturally your heart will open, and compassion will awaken in
you: What more would you want than to free them from their torment? Now
take this compassion released in your heart and transfer it to the
person who needs your help: You will find that your help is inspired
more naturally, and that you can direct it more easily.
People
sometimes ask me: "If I do this, will the friend or relative whom I am
imagining in pain come to some harm?" On the contrary, thinking about
them with such love and compassion can only be of help to them, and will
even bring about the healing of whatever suffering and pain they may
have gone through in the past, may be going through now, or have yet to
go through.
For the fact that they are the instrument
of your arousing compassion, even if it is only for an instant, will
bring them tremendous merit and benefit. Because they have been
responsible, in part, for the opening of your heart, and for allowing
you to help the sick or dying person with your compassion, then the
merit from that action will naturally return to them.
You
can also mentally dedicate the merit of that action to your friend or
relative who helped you to open your heart. And you can wish the person
well, and pray that in the future he or she will be free of suffering.
You will be grateful toward your friend, and your friend might feel
inspired and grateful too, if you tell the person that he or she helped
you to evoke your compassion.
So to ask, "Will my
friend or relative I am imagining in place of the sick or dying person
come to some harm?" shows that we have not really understood how
powerful and miraculous the working of compassion is. It blesses and
heals all those involved: the person who generates compassion, the
person through whom that compassion is generated, and the person to whom
that compassion is directed. As Portia says in
Shakespeare's Merchant of Venice:
The quality of mercy is not strained,
It droppeth as the gentle rain from heaven
Upon the place beneath: it is twice blessed;
It blesseth him that gives, and him that takes ...
Compassion is the wish-fulfilling gem whose light of healing spreads in all directions.
There
is a very beautiful story that I love that illustrates this. Buddha
once recounted one of his previous lives, before he became enlightened. A
great emperor had three sons, and the Buddha had been the youngest, who
was called Mahasattva. Mahasattva was by nature a loving and
compassionate little boy, and thought of all living things as his
children.
One day the emperor and his court went to
picnic in a forest, and the princes went off to play in the woods. After
a while they came across a tigress who had given birth, and was so
exhausted with hunger that she was on the point of eating her little
cubs. Mahasattva asked his brothers: "What would the tigress need to eat
now to revive her?"
"Only fresh meat or blood," they replied.
"Who could give his own flesh and blood to see that she is fed and save the lives of her and her cubs?" he asked.
"Who, indeed?" they replied.
Mahasattva
was deeply moved by the plight of the tigress and her cubs, and started
to think: "For so long I have been wandering uselessly through samsara,
life after life, and because of my desire, anger, and ignorance, have
done little to help other beings. Here at last is a great opportunity."
The
princes were walking back to join their family, when Mahasattva said:
"You two go on ahead. I will catch you up later." Quietly he crept back
to the tigress, went right up to her, and lay down on the ground in
front of her, to offer himself to her as food. The tigress looked at
him, but was so weak that she could not even open her mouth. So the
prince found a sharp stick and cut a deep gash in his body; the blood
flowed out, the tigress licked it, and she grew strong enough to open
her jaws and eat him.
Mahasattva had given his body to
the tigress in order to save her cubs, and through the great merit of
his compassion, he was reborn in a higher realm and progressed toward
his enlightenment and his rebirth as the Buddha. But it was not only
himself he had helped through his action: The power of his compassion
had also purified the tigress and her cubs of their karma, and even of
any karmic debt they might have owed to him for saving their lives in
the way he did. Because it was so strong, in fact, his compassionate act
created a karmic link between them that was to continue far into the
future. The tigress and her cubs, who received the flesh of Mahasattva's
body, were reborn, it is said, as the Buddha's first five disciples,
the very first to receive his teaching after his enlightenment. What a
vision this story gives us of how vast and mysterious the power of
compassion truly is!
5. How to Meditate on Compassion
Yet,
as I have said, evoking this power of compassion in us is not always
easy. I find myself that the simplest ways are the best and the most
direct. Every day, life gives us innumerable chances to open our hearts,
if we can only take them. An old woman passes you with a sad and lonely
face, swollen veins on her legs, and two heavy plastic bags full of
shopping she can hardly carry; a shabbily dressed old man shuffles in
front of you in line at the post office; a boy on crutches looks harried
and anxious as he tries to cross the street in the afternoon traffic; a
dog lies bleeding to death on the road; a young girl sits alone,
sobbing hysterically in the subway. Switch on a television, and there on
the news perhaps is a mother in Beirut kneeling above the body of her
murdered son; or an old grandmother in Moscow pointing to the soup that
is her food for today, not knowing if she'll even have that tomorrow; or
one of the AIDS children in Romania staring out at you with eyes
drained of any living expression.
Any one of these
sights could open the eyes of your heart to the fact of vast suffering
in the world. Let it. Don't waste the love and grief it arouses; in the
moment you feel compassion welling up in you, don't brush it aside,
don't shrug it off and try quickly to return to "normal," don't be
afraid of your feeling or embarrassed by it, don't allow yourself to be
distracted from it or let it run aground in apathy. Be vulnerable: use
that quick, bright uprush of compassion; focus on it, go deep into your
heart and meditate on it, develop it, enhance, and deepen it. By doing
this you will realize how blind you have been to suffering, how the pain
that you are experiencing or seeing now is only a tiny fraction of the
pain of the world. All beings, everywhere, suffer; let your heart go out
to them all in spontaneous and immeasurable compassion, and
direct that compassion, along with the blessing of all the Buddhas, to the alleviation of suffering everywhere.
Compassion
is a far greater and nobler thing than pity. Pity has its roots in
fear, and a sense of arrogance and condescension, sometimes even a smug
feeling of "I'm glad it's not me." As Stephen Levine says: "When your
fear touches someone's pain it becomes pity; when your love touches
someone's pain, it becomes compassion."4 To train in compassion, then,
is to know all beings are the same and suffer in similar ways, to honor
all those who suffer, and to know you are neither separate from nor
superior to anyone.
So your first response on seeing
someone suffer becomes not mere pity, but deep compassion. You feel for
that person respect and even gratitude, because you now know that
whoever prompts you to develop compassion by their suffering is in fact
giving you one of the greatest gifts of all, because they are helping
you to develop that very quality you need most in your progress toward
enlightenment. That is why we say in Tibet that the beggar who is asking
you for money, or the sick old woman wringing your heart, may be the
buddhas in disguise, manifesting on your path to help you grow in
compassion and so move towards buddhahood.
6. How to Direct Your Compassion
When
you meditate deeply enough on compassion, therewill arise in you a
strong determination to alleviate the suffering of all beings, and an
acute sense of responsibility toward that noble aim. There are two ways,
then, of mentally directing this compassion and making it active.
The
first way is to pray to all the buddhas and enlightened beings, from
the depths of your heart, that everything you do, all your thoughts,
words, and deeds, should only benefit beings and bring them happiness.
In the words of one great prayer: "Bless me into usefulness." Pray that
you benefit all who come in contact with you, and help them transform
their suffering and their lives.
The second and
universal way is to direct whatever compassion you have to all beings,
by dedicating all your positive actions and spiritual practice to their
welfare and especially toward their enlightenment. For when you meditate
deeply on compassion, a realization dawns in you that the only way for
you to be of complete help to other beings is for you to gain
enlightenment. From that a strong sense of determination and universal
responsibility is born, and the compassionate wish arises in you at that
moment to attain enlightenment for the benefit of all others.
This
compassionate wish is called Bodhichitta in Sanskrit; bodhi means our
enlightened essence, and chitta means heart. So we could translate it as
"the heart of our enlightened mind." To awaken and develop the heart of
the enlightened mind is to ripen steadily the seed of our buddha
nature, that seed that in the end, when our practice of compassion has
become perfect and all-embracing, will flower majestically into
buddhahood. Bodhichitta, then, is the spring and source and root of the
entire spiritual path. That is why Shantideva could praise Bodhichitta
with such joy:
It is the supreme elixir
That overcomes the sovereignty of death.
It is the inexhaustible treasure
That eliminates poverty in the world.
It is the supreme medicine
That quells the world's disease.
It is the tree that shelters all beings
Wandering and tired on the path of conditioned existence.
It is the universal bridge
That leads to freedom from unhappy states of birth.
It is the dawning moon of the mind
That dispels the torment of disturbing conceptions.
It is the great sun that finally removes
The misty ignorance of the world.5
And this is why in our tradition we pray with such urgency:
Bodhichitta, precious and sublime:
May it arise in those in whom it has not arisen;
May it never decline where it has arisen;
But go on increasing, further and further!
Patrul
Rinpoche used these four lines to encapsulate the entire training in
Bodhichitta, "the wish," as Maitreya described it, "to attain perfect
enlightenment for the sake of others." Let me briefly oudine this
training. It begins by developing within your mind loving kindness,
compassion, joy, and equanimity toward limitless living beings.6 Through
a practice of deep contemplation, you cultivate these four qualities to
such a degree that they become boundless and immeasurable. And so
Bodhichitta "arises where it has not arisen" for this has brought you to
a point where you are impelled by an almost heartbreaking urge to take
responsibility for others, and so to pledge yourself truly to arouse the
heart of the enlightened mind by training in what are called
"Bodhichitta in aspiration" and "Bodhichitta in action."7 The former is
to train in considering yourself the same as others, then in exchanging
yourself with others, which includes the Tonglen practice, and finally
in considering others even more important than yourself. The latter is
to develop to perfection generosity, discipline, patience or endurance,
diligence, concentration, and wisdom, all of them infused by a
penetrating insight into the nature of reality itself. So the
Bodhichitta "never declines where it has arisen" and goes on "increasing
further and further." This, then, is the path of the bodhisattvas, the
practice of the compassionate heart of the enlightened mind that,
because undertaken for the benefit of all, leads directly to Buddhahood.
THE STAGES OF TONGLEN
Now
that I have introduced you to the various methods of evoking
compassion, and to the importance and power of compassion itself, I can
give you the noble practice of Tonglen most effectively; for now you
will have the motivation, the understanding, and the tools to do it for
your greatest benefit and the greatest benefit of others. Tonglen is a
Buddhist practice, but I strongly believe that anyone—anyone at all—can
do it. Even if you have no religious faith, I urge you simply to try it.
I have found Tonglen to be of the greatest possible help.
Put
very simply, the Tonglen practice of giving and receiving is to take on
the suffering and pain of others, and give them your happiness,
well-being, and peace of mind. Like one of the methods of meditation
practice I explained earlier, Tonglen uses the medium of the breath. As
Geshe Chekhawa wrote: "Giving and receiving should be practiced
alternately. This alternation should be placed on the medium of the
breath."
I know from my own experience how hard it is
to imagine taking on the sufferings of others, and especially of sick
and dying people, without first building in yourself a strength and
confidence of compassion. It is this strength and this confidence that
will give your practice the power to transmute their suffering.
This
is why I always recommend that you begin the Tonglen practice for
others by first practicing it on yourself. Before you send out love and
compassion to others, you uncover, deepen, create, and strengthen them
in yourself, and heal yourself of any reticence or distress or anger or
fear that might create an obstacle to practicing Tonglen wholeheartedly.
Over
the years a way of teaching Tonglen has developed that many of my
students have found very helpful and therapeutic. It has four stages.
THE PRELIMINARY TONGLEN PRACTICE
The
best way to do this practice, and any practice of Tonglen, is to begin
by evoking and resting in the nature of mind. When you rest in the
nature of mind and see all things directly as "empty," illusory, and
dream-like, you are resting in the state of what is known as "ultimate"
or "absolute" Bodhichitta, the true heart of the enlightened mind. The
teachings compare absolute Bodhichitta to an inexhaustible treasury of
generosity; and compassion, when understood in its profoundest sense, is
known and seen as the natural radiance of the nature of mind, the
skillful means that rises from the heart of wisdom.
Begin
by sitting and bringing the mind home. Allow all your thoughts to
settle, neither inviting them nor following them. Close your eyes if you
wish. When you feel really calm and centered, alert yourself slightly
and begin the practice.
1. Environmental Tonglen
We
all know how the moods and atmospheres of our mind have a great hold on
us. Sit with your mind and feel its mood and atmosphere. If you feel
your mood is uneasy, or the atmosphere is dark, then, as you breathe in,
mentally absorb whatever is unwholesome; and as you breathe out,
mentally give out calm, clarity, and joy, so purifying and healing the
atmosphere and environment of your mind. This is why I call this first
stage of the practice "environmental Tonglen."
2. Self Tonglen
For the purposes of this exercise, divide yourself into twoaspects, A and B. A
is the aspect of you that is whole, compassionate, warm, and loving,
like a true friend, really willing to be there for you, responsive and
open to you, without ever judging you, whatever your faults or
shortcomings.
B is the aspect of you that has
been hurt, that feels misunderstood and frustrated, bitter or angry, who
might have been, for example, unjustly treated or abused as a child, or
has suffered in relationships or been wronged by society.
Now, as you breathe in, imagine that A opens his or her heart completely, and warmly and compassionately accepts and embraces all of B's suffering and negativity and pain and hurt. Moved by this, B opens his or her heart and all pain and suffering melt away in this compassionate embrace.
As you breathe out, imagine A sending out to B all his or her healing love, warmth, trust, comfort, confidence, happiness, and joy.
3. Tonglen in a Living Situation
Imagine
vividly a situation where you have acted badly, one about which you
feel guilty, and which you wince to even think about.
Then,
as you breathe in, accept total responsibility for your actions in that
particular situation, without in any way trying to justify your
behavior. Acknowledge exactly what you have done wrong, and
wholeheartedly ask for forgiveness. Now, as you breathe out, send out
reconciliation, forgiveness, healing, and understanding.
So
you breathe in blame, and breathe out the undoing of harm; you breathe
in responsibility, breathe out healing, forgiveness, and reconciliation.
This
exercise is particularly powerful, and it may give you the courage to
go to see the person whom you have wronged, and the strength and
willingness to talk to them directly and actually ask for forgiveness
from the depths of your heart.
4. Tonglen for Others
Imagine
someone to whom you feel very close, particularly someone who is
suffering and in pain. As you breathe in, imagine you take in all their
suffering and pain with compassion, and as you breathe out, send your
warmth, healing, love, joy, and happiness streaming out to them.
Now,
just as in the practice of loving kindness, gradually widen the circle
of your compassion to embrace first other people whom you also feel very
close to, then those whom you feel indifferent about, then those you
dislike or have difficulty with, then even those you feel are actively
monstrous and cruel. Allow your compassion to become universal, and to
fold in its embrace all sentient beings, all beings, in fact, with-
out any exception:
Sentient beings are as limitless as the whole of space:
May they each effortlessly realize the nature of their mind,
And may every single being of all the six realms, who has each
been in one life or another my father or mother,
Attain all together the ground of primordial perfection.
What
I have been giving in this section is a complete preliminary practice
to the main Tonglen, which, as you will see, involves a much richer
process of visualization. This preliminary practice works with your
attitude of mind and heart, and prepares, opens, and inspires you. Not
only does it, in its own right, enable you to heal the environment of
your mind, your own suffering, and the pain of the past, and to begin to
help, through your compassion, all sentient beings; but it also
establishes and makes you intimate and familiar with the process of
giving and receiving that finds its complete expression in the main
practice of Tonglen.
THE MAIN TONGLEN PRACTICE
In
the Tonglen practice of giving and receiving, we take on, through
compassion, all the various mental and physical sufferings of all
beings: their fear, frustration, pain, anger, guilt, bitterness, doubt,
and rage; and we give them, through love, all our happiness, and
well-being, peace of mind, healing, and fulfillment.
1.
Before you begin this practice, sit quietly and bring your mind home.
Then, making use of any of the exercises or methods I have described,
whichever one you find really inspires you and works for you, meditate
deeply on compassion. Summon and invoke the presence of all the buddhas,
bodhisattvas, and enlightened beings, so that, through their
inspiration and blessing, compassion may be born in your heart.
2.
Imagine in front of you, as vividly and as poignantly as possible,
someone you care for who is suffering. Try and imagine every aspect of
the person's pain and distress. Then, as you feel your heart opening in
compassion toward the person, imagine that all of his or her sufferings
manifest together and gather into a great mass of hot, black, grimy
smoke.
3. Now, as you breathe in, visualize this mass
of black smoke dissolves, with your in-breath, into the very core of
your self-grasping at your heart. There it destroys completely all
traces of self-cherishing, thereby purifying all your negative karma.
4.
Imagine now that your self-cherishing has been destroyed, that the
heart of your enlightened mind, your Bodhichitta, is fully revealed. As
you breathe out, then, imagine that you are sending out its brilliant,
cooling light of peace, joy, happiness, and ultimate well-being to your
friend in pain, and that its rays are purifying all their negative
karma.
Here I find it inspiring to imagine, as
Shantideva suggests, that your Bodhichitta has transformed your heart,
or your whole body and being itself, into a dazzling, wish-fulfilling
jewel, a jewel that can grant the desires and wishes of anyone, and
provide exactly what he or she longs for and needs. True compassion is
the wish-fulfilling jewel because it has the inherent power to give
precisely to each being whatever that being most needs, and so alleviate
his or her suffering, and bring about his or her true fulfillment.
5.
So at the moment the light of your Bodhichitta streams out to touch
your friend in pain, it is essential to feel a firm conviction that all
of his or her negative karma has been purified, and a deep, lasting joy
that he or she has been totally freed of suffering and pain.
Then, as you go on breathing normally, in and out, continue steadily with this practice.
Practicing
Tonglen on one friend in pain helps you to begin the process of
gradually widening the circle of compassion to take on the suffering and
purify the karma of all beings, and to give them all your happiness,
well-being, joy, and peace of mind. This is the wonderful goal of
Tonglen practice, and in a larger sense, of the whole path of
compassion.
TONGLEN FOR A DYING PERSON
Now
I think you can begin to see how Tonglen could be directed specifically
toward helping the dying, how much strength and confidence it could
give you when you come to help them, and how much actual transforming
help it could offer them.
I have given you the main
Tonglen practice. Imagine now, in the place of your friend in pain, the
person who is dying. Go through exacdy the same stages as in the main
Tonglen. In the visualization in part 3, imagine every aspect of the
dying person's suffering and fear gathering into the mass of hot, black,
grimy smoke, which you then breathe in; and consider too that by so
doing, as before, you are destroying your self-grasping and
self-cherishing, and purifying all your negative karma.
Now,
as before, imagine, as you are breathing out, the light of the heart of
your enlightened mind is filling the dying person with its peace and
well-being and purifying all his or her negative karma.
At
every moment in our lives we need compassion, but what more urgent
moment could there be than when we are dying? What more wonderful and
consoling gift could you give to the dying than the knowledge that they
are being prayed for, and that you are taking on their suffering and
purifying their negative karma through your practice for them?
Even
if they don't know that you are practicing for them, you are helping
them and in turn they are helping you. They are actively helping you to
develop your compassion, and so purify and heal yourself. For me, every
dying person is a teacher, giving all those who help them a chance to
transform themselves through developing their compassion.8
THE HOLY SECRET
You
may be asking yourself this question: "If I take in the sufferings and
pain of others, won't I risk harming myself?" If you feel at all
hesitant or feel that you don't yet have the strength or courage of
compassion to do the practice of Tonglen wholeheartedly, don't worry.
Just imagine yourself doing it, saying in your mind, "As I breathe in, I
am taking on the suffering of my friend or others, and as I breathe
out, I am giving him or them happiness and peace." Just simply doing
this might create the climate in your mind that could inspire you to
begin practicing Tonglen directly.
If you feel at all
hesitant or unable to do the full practice, you can also do Tonglen in
the form of a simple prayer, deeply aspiring to help beings. You might
pray for example: "May I be able to take on the suffering of others; may
I be able to give my well-being and happiness to them." This prayer
will create auspicious conditions for the awakening of your power to do
Tonglen in the future.
The one thing you should know
for certain is that the only thing that Tonglen could harm is the one
thing that has been harming you the most: your own ego, your
self-grasping, self-cherishing mind, which is the root of suffering. For
if you practice Tonglen as often as possible, this self-grasping mind
will get weaker and weaker, and your true nature, compassion, will be
given a chance to emerge more and more strongly. The stronger and
greater your compassion, the stronger and greater your fearlessness and
confidence. So compassion reveals itself yet again as your greatest
resource and your greatest protection. As Shantideva says:
Whoever wishes to quickly afford protection
To both himself and others
Should practice that holy secret
The exchanging of self for others.9
This
holy secret of the practice of Tonglen is one that the mystic masters
and saints of every tradition know; and living it and embodying it, with
the abandon and fervor of true wisdom and true compassion, is what
fills their lives with joy. One modern figure who dedicated her life to
serving the sick and dying and who radiated this joy of giving and
receiving was Mother Teresa. I know of no more inspiring statement of
the spiritual essence of Tonglen than these words of hers:
We all long for heaven where God is, but we have it in our power
to be in heaven with Him at this very moment. But being happy
with Him now means:
Loving as He loves,
Helping as He helps,
Giving as He gives,
Serving as He serves,
Rescuing as He rescues,
Being with Him twenty-four hours,
Touching Him in his distressing disguise.
A
love as vast as this cured Geshe Chekhawa's lepers of their leprosy; it
could also perhaps cure us of a disease even more dangerous: of that
ignorance, which life after life has hindered us from realizing the
nature of our mind, and so of attaining liberation.
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